It reminds me Dario Fo’s quote “Know how to live the time given to you.” Yes that is right. Life
should be for those who know how to live on it. Uncertain about the fact; I am feeling
to be with my friend AMY now. We are
school friends and still keep that relation. I met her during my last INDIA
visit which was totally unexpected. We had a coffee chat and recollected some
of our childhood day’s memories.
Teenage is the stage where most of them live in their
imaginary world. The beauty of it was very elegant and there were no limits for
your reach. We had and shared about our vision of bright future, high ambitions,
best family, successful goals - oh my GOD and was successful in all the fields
we could. Wish real life was the same. I like her because of the simplicity and
innocence. Our dream towards becoming a teacher, having a family, building a
house etc. was exactly the same. All these were during our teenage time. But
nothing happened as wish. Everything changed in all aspect of our life.
During our last meeting we were sharing where we reached
after traveling a long way. Her life was with full of unforeseen. Will tell the
story about a cute smiley girl [childhood face is more familiar than recent]
with a great dream towards her life ended up with twirls and twists leaving
nothing great to say as behind. She was really good in her studies. It was her
dream of getting (Dr.) PhD in life science and becoming a professor in college.
Her pet name was Dr. Amy in our friends circle. She used to imitate being a
teacher while clearing our doubts. I still remember the grace on her face
during those moments. Her parents were very rich and it was confirmed she was
going to do it as she had everything she needed to achieve it.
But nothing happened as her dream. Her family fortune has
made a big twist in her life. Her parents decided not to make her study more as
there is enough for her and her next generation to live a luxury life and
started searching a suitable bridegroom for her. Even they didn’t have the patience to wait
till her complete the degree. She got married to a business man’s son who is
equally rich in wealth – which made her parents confirmed, that there is no
need for a second thought. With a broken dreams about her successful career
she accepted her parents decision and gradually was able to accept with new
situation as it was another accomplishment of her life as the dream being in
the hand of a best man was coming true. He was so loving, caring and handsome.
Both of them were match perfectly made for each other. Seeing and hearing the
sizzling sound of their smile was enough to have a best day. Touch of innocence
and simplicity with immaturity made their life so colorful.
But this bliss didn’t stay for a long - not even a year. He
met with an accident which left him in coma. During this initial stage even she
was diagnosed as pregnant for 3 months.
Every single moment of her life those days was as trusting as her eager
to share the joy with her husband had strong desire and she was sure the very
next moment he is going to come back to life. But one fine morning he left this
world without uttering a single word to her; leaving a great trust and hopes
nowhere. With shredded voice and incomplete sentence she tried to tell me about
that moment. She told she could hear mourns and screaming but didn’t feel like it
was true. She thought it was just a
nightmare dream she is seeing as she was unsure about accepting the truth about
what happened. Even though it was hard to realize her husband is no more; the
truth she is no more was very clear for her. Why he stayed in coma for 5 month
- giving her the hope he will be back one day to celebrate the good news; he
might have died on spot right? Still the mystery behind the anticipation is not
answerable.
Days after that were not good for her. All the people around
her start behaving differently towards her. All of them turned towards her
questioning one or the other matter. She said “I didn’t know I was living in a
broken building till I felt the shake”. She was tortured in her husband house
as her bad luck was blamed for all the things happened. Also the child in her
womb had to go through lot of insults and abuse for the blame on what happened
to his unseen father. Is it she or the unborn the real reason for the
unexpected happenings?
In another one month she gave birth to a healthy baby boy. Raising
the kid was very difficult for her as she had to depend on someone for every need. The
parents who initially thought the wealth they had is far enough for the next
generation started feeling she and the son a burden for her siblings well wish
and started searching for another bridegroom for her. It was not easy to find a
bridegroom for her this time as the demand to accept a second marriage woman as
well a mother of one at same time was not an easy task. Finally they were able
to find a companion for her. Her feeling towards the marriage was just a way to
escape from all existing people but nothing other than hoping for having a
great family. Finally they were able to find a suitable person who they can
handover their responsibility and relax. This time it is not a wealthy business
man son in law instead a normal person who in search of find a care taker for
him. I think that should be the best phrase to anote the situation. He is fine
and healthy in appearance but from inside with lot of health problems.
There are no regrets for the last 12 years of her life.
There is nothing to describe as great happened or achieved as how she want to be but better than
nothing. One of her friends helped her in getting a small job to support her
increasing family needs. Managing the responsibility as a mother of teenager,
caretaker of a sick husband and role of working women to manage the family - she
is living her life. Even though she couldn't reach where she need to be she
says "I live in a world where I am all in all". Dawn to dusk is very meaningful
for her. Her existence is the backbone of that family and she is living for
that.
Dreaming of a life which is full of success and happiness on
half and another half managing to maintain a family straight. Her dreams and
real life has got a far distance. A bright future is always easy to wish but to
live a happy today is very difficult to achieve. There are lots of AMY’s
surround us. Try not to hurt or disgrace them. They are the ones who knows how
to live for today. Now a day’s most of them live for tomorrow’s brightness
forgetting today’s happiness. Our world offers lot of guarantees and securities
about tomorrow. Whether they are genuine as promised nobody knows till we reach
a situation to need it. We live in a society where people are ready to go to
any worst extent for making a bright tomorrow. Without realizing the truth the
promises of tomorrow is not guaranteed it is just a fantasy.
“Tomorrow is never
promised, so live for today. Put your ego aside; open your eyes to who and
what’s around you. You are loved. You are cared for. You are blessed, always
remember that” Junethea Crystal Centeno
good one
ReplyDelete